Friday, October 21, 2011

healing

it came in september
the inevitable
my brother fell asleep and the angels danced
he was gone
it has been so hard ...and final...
but i promised paul that i would not be sad ..[so hard]
he would not have wanted me that way..this i do know..
there were five rainbows on the day of the funeral and i know he was busy painting the sky..
every time i see one from now on..i will have my chat with him..
healing time now ..as i come out of the grieving labrynth..i do feel strangely different..not bad or awful but i am seeing things in a whole new light...a cleansing.
my lethargy is subsiding and i feel new and creative things stirring..
the summer is almost upon us and the sun is a welcome warmth that penetrates the bones..ahh lovely..
i want to grow things ..i am doing..
i want to watch things happen slowly..i am
i am going to enjoy..i will
i want to love..i am already there
i am not wealthy..i am rich
i can breathe ..i am lucky

6 comments:

Julia said...

Oh Lynnie, so sorry for your loss..
I have been thinking of you..shedding a tear as I read your post..
So glad your healing.
love Julia ♥

no need to post this comment, just want you to know I was thinking of you.♥

Lurline said...

And you have made me feel happy for you this morning, Lynnie - there comes a time for beautiful memories!
Big hugs - Lurline♥

Lorraine Young Pottery said...

Just remember it is normal to feel a hole in your heart and sudden moments of grief out of the blue, between the moments of noticing how beautiful the world is.

HUGS,
Lorraine

serendipity said...

Hello from England. It sounds like you've had an awful time recently but I do hope life gets better for you. Crafting really helps take your mind off things doesn't it! xx

Jo said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. It's twelve years since my sister passed away and I'm still grieving. I don't think it really gets any better but you learn to live in a different way, a way in which you can cope with the loss. I've just had a quick look back through your previous posts and it looks like you're a creative person. I'm going to go back and read some more posts now.

Knit Witch said...

Hi Lynnie, So sorry to read of your loss. My heart goes out to you. Take care and go gently...Susan xx