Foetal positition

I am still in the foetal positition....you know the positition the experts say is a protective stance

I am slowly ...slowly unfurling

I still am finding that I have a really low

(actually zero) tolerance level..

By that I mean ...people that say " i

want to pick your brains"

I think since I became the different person that I now seem to be

I am constantly meeting needy and totally overinduged women

The constants in my life now mean more to me than ever

My family

My grandchildren

My true friends

I keep asking for guidance

It hasn't come yet

Maybe it's not time

So this post is being typed on my iPhone

As I sit looking out on the Indian ocean

You may ask why am I sitting here. Doing this

Hell , I don't know .

What I am thinking is "how the hell did I get here"?